The Native Warrior

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Life gets crazy. Hectic schedules, jobs we hate, illnesses we never planned to happen, all sorts of unpredictable trials. My life has gotten out of hand. Different jobs, ridiculous illnesses, immense amounts of stress. It’s time to bring some balance back to myself. Drink more tea, get more exercise, make time to connect with friends, and maybe even find God by attending Church. I hope to better my life. Not that my life is horrible, some people would consider my life to be nearly perfect, but I know in my heart and in my head that things could be better, more enjoyable. 

I hope tomorrow will mark a new journey in my life, one that brings that balance I hope to find. 

Until then…

- The Native Warrior - 

It always amazes me how some music travels through your ears, runs along your bones, courses through your veins, and makes your heart feel and your mind race with imagination, possibilities, and hope. The feelings that hold tight to my gut of wanting to run away, leave LA, explore a new city, leave the stresses of life behind get even stronger when I hear inspirational “run with the wind, be spontaneous, follow your heart” kind of music. The need to make money to pay the bills and pay the rent doesn’t even matter to me, I just want to make money so I can run away. Not leave the people I love, nor even leave the city that raised me and made me who I am today, Los Angeles. Just leave temporarily, for a week or two, with my soulmate, to anywhere but here. So many times I just stare at my car keys, thumb through my wallet, trying to convince myself that I can just leave, I can make it. I very much wish I was irresponsible enough to do that. The Grand Canyon, Phoenix, Mesa Verde, Sedona, Palm Springs, San Francisco, Vancouver… they all call my name, all day all night, trying their best to summon me for a visit. My car, whom I’ve named Stealth Bomber, tries to steer my wheel into their direction, egging me on, trying to get me to be adventurous, spontaneous, me. 

For now, I suppose the tiny bit of hope I have to cling to is all I have to get me through this dull routine life in the same city I’ve been stuck in for my entire life. Sure I’ve traveled, I’ve been on vacation, I’ve been to all of the above mentioned cities with the exception of Palm Springs, but now, more than ever I NEED to go, I NEED to drive, I NEED to explore, I NEED to escape, but sadly, I cannot. Le Sigh. 

For those of you that can, travel. Do not take your freedom, your sense of adventure, your financial abilities to explore for granted, because people like me envy you and would give the world to have those opportunities to just up and leave for weeks at a time. 

- The Native Warrior - 

I love being in a relationship, I’m in one now, one I’ve been in for over a year and plan to be in for as long as I live. It’s comfortable, safe, and just a good feeling. We know each other inside out, in fact many times I believe he knows more about me than I even know! With that said, sometimes the excitement that comes with the first month of dating makes me miss it. The excitement of spending time with a stranger, not knowing how long they’ll be in you life, where in the world they’ll end up taking you, what food they like, the family they have, their favorites, their annoyances… just the excitement of not knowing anything but wanting to learn everything. 

Cross-country roadtrip. That is something I want to do, rediscover the man in my life, learn new things about him, see how he handles different situations, interacts with all sorts of people. Perhaps this blog is inspired by the movie currently playing on my television, Elizabethtown. Or perhaps this is inspired by a burning desire to travel, learn, and be with the one I love. 

Another rambling post. 

- The Native Warrior - 

I know there are families that like to name their children with the same beginning letter; Eric, Emma, Elle; Katie, Kolton, Kade; Aiden, Ashley, Aaron; blah blah blah. But really, I never really knew how many people in the world really do that! Now that I am in my twenties and many people I know are having children, it amuses me to see that 90% of those people name their children this way. I suppose it has a nice ring to it when you babble about your children, but it’s actually quite annoying. I really hope that one day when I have children of my own, I remind myself of this absurdity and give my children unique names, starting with different letters. I don’t mean to offend anyone who has named their children this way, it’s not that I hate that you’ve done this, I just frown a little at your lack of creativity in the naming department. 

- The Native Warrior -

I could sit here and easily write a book about all the things wrong in my life, but I am not going to, instead I’ll give praise to all things going right in my world. I have a family that loves me so much and will do anything in their power to keep me as happy and healthy as possible. My boyfriend, whom I think I can safely say is the man I’ll be with forever, does everything he can to keep my heart full of love and a smile permanently fixed to my face. My friends have so much care for me. I’m entering an exciting point in my life where my career will be taking off, and best of all, it will be through my very own business, bossing myself rather than being bossed by some “higher up”. I have the privilege of living in Los Angeles, a place so many long to be. The home I have created with the man in my life is a home full of love, warmth, and safety. Wondrous technological devices fill my desk. Clean filtered water fills my cup. Fluffy colorful and funky slippers keep my feet warm. 

I could go on, really, for at least five more paragraphs, but I believe this post has already served its purpose. Sometimes we need to take a minute, sit back, forget all the negativity, and remind ourselves of all the great things we each have in our lives. Thank you for letting me de-cloud my brain and fill it up with a little bit of sunshine. 

- The Native Warrior -

After years of wanting to “blog” I came to my senses and decided that I needed to blog. This will serve as a “de-stresser” space. A place to speak my mind, praise the good qualities in life, and openly complain about the hellish days that unfortunately find us all eventually. With this said…

Hello Tumblr and thank you for reading my thoughts. 

- The Native Warrior -